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Friday, March 8, 2013

The Difference Between Extrovert and a Introvert


As I walk down a busy street to get to my destination I can not help but glance at people who are walking right past me. I can tell their human from their facial features, how the carry themselves as they walk past me. We all have the same features that make us human for example, having our bright eyes below our bushy eyebrows; they are almost identical on each side of our face. We are human so we must all be the same? No, every human on earth is their own self.

Some being’s love monkeying around the television with their friends with tortilla chips and salsa in different, bright, colorful bowls on the small, wooden, brown stained coffee table right in front of them, shoving chips in their mouth while watching their favorite team makes a touch down, while others would prefer snuggling up into their soft blue couch with smooth jazz softly playing in the background while reading their favorite novel. They both are human but they enjoy doing different things. How do we identify with what we enjoy doing and whom we like to befriend with?

We identify with our personality. Our personality is our identity, it makes us who we are and every single human being on the planet earth has in fact their own personality that makes their identity. Some people are outgoing and enjoy conversing with random strangers down the street while others would much rather keep to themselves. I for instants am an extrovert. What is an extrovert? Well it is a certain personality trait that makes the individuals personality. Ok, I understand that portion but what exactly is an extrovert?
An extrovert is “a person whose interest is more in his environment and in other people than in himself; a person who is active and expressive.”For example, they are usually those annoying people who try talk make conversation with you while our trying to do something important, perhaps waiting impatiently in line at your local Starbucks to get your coffee before work and an individual tries to make conversation with you and even after getting the warm, steaming cup of coffee that you ordered, the insist for you to sit down with them and make conversation. Extroverts tend to use a lot of hand movements they talk to you, as if there is an fly circling around your head as you two make conversation or it may seem as if they are making up some new dance moves and not even paying one attention as your speaking about your dog getting into the garbage can, again.

Being an extrovert, I tend to constantly annoy my own self. I tend to talk a lot on pointless useless topics on the weather, clothing, or even how fresh the crisp breeze feels as it brushes against my clothes. I tend to annoy any introverts around me.

An introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people. While I am trying to socialize with an introvert and talk about how the building is dark brown but when the suns rays hit the side of the building it looks like its in a different shade of “toffee brown,” they tend to stare at me going on and own about this brown building, thinking to themselves, “Why is this person so desperately trying to point out this brown building to me? What is the point of this conversation?” An introvert tends to keep to themselves and usually have a small circle of friends as extroverts tend to socialize around them and talk to anyone within five feet away from them.

Monday, March 4, 2013

My Personality

On September 7th, 2012, the Bayan Learning Community went through different activities.

One activity was called “Wagon Wheel.” We were told to pair up in partners of two, each facing one another and other surrounding in a circle. The one person on the outer circle had to ask the person sitting on the outside of the circle question that was provided. When the questions were asked and time was up the person sitting in the inside of the circle had to move over two places to the left, leaving their old partner and taking the questionnaire with them. Once with their new partner, the people sitting in the inside of the circle passed the questionnaire over to their new partner and the person sitting in the inside of the circle was not being asked the questions.

One question that was asked, “When did you first realize race could be problematic?”

Personally, I have found race problematic when I tried looking for work. When going into interviews for certain company’s they look at what race you are.

While I was answering, it was easy for me because I am comfortable with talking to others but some of my partners it seemed difficult for them to answer the questions.  I was able to determine whom is an extravert and who is an introvert.

Yet, that didn't matter as much than the energy my partners were giving.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Exposing For The Public

NOT SAFE FOR WORK!

 
Logging into Facebook today a friends post caught my eye:
 

"Marina Abramović is best known for her performance pieces, in which she tries to explore what is possible for an artist to do in the name of art. Her best known piece was the recent “The Artist Is Present,” in which she sat motionless for 736.5 hours over the course of three months, inviting visitors to sit opposite her and make eye contact for as long as they wanted. So many people began spontaneously crying across from her that blogs and Facebook groups were set up for those people.

Her bravest piece, however, is my favorite. This piece was primarily a trust exercise, in which she told viewers she would not move for six hours no matter what they did to her. She placed 72 objects one could use in pleasing or destructive ways, ranging from flowers and a feather boa to a knife and a loaded pistol, on a table near her and invited the viewers to use them on her however they wanted."

- Humbert Humbert 
 

The fact that majority of the people chose pain verses pleasure when they thought they wouldn't be held responsible says a lot about human nature to me.

I commend her for her courage.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

What Do You Want In Life?

Diane Edwards had given a presentation on Harnessing the Power of Your Thoughts and Visualizations.

She asked that one important, a main question one tends to ask at one point in their own life:
What do You Want To Acheve in Your Life?.

After asking the question she then gave us five minutes to think and write down what we desire or want more in our life. I did not hesitate as I started pushiing the pen against the lined blue paper, "Happiness and Success," I wrote down. 

Most of my life I have been in the darkness, I have been mostly in a lonely place, not wanting help from everyone and with traumatic life experiences, made me plunge further down into the darkness. The last word I wrote down was “success.”

I have been lazy for most of my life s well. I would wait last minute in order to do things and if I were to complete the task, which sometimes I would not even finish what I would have to do,

I would finish it in the most sloppy and unorganized way.

I did not care about my life!

I felt that I can have everything handed to me in a single planter that did not require for me to put in much effort.

Years have past and I have grown.

In order to reach my life goals, I have to put in the effort.

I want to be successful.

I want to be successful in my marriage;

I want to be successful at my dream job, to teach and make an impact to people, to be an elementary school teacher.

I want to be successful so I can set a role model for not only my children, but be a positive role model for others that have influenced me and my personality.

How can I get to that point of my life?

Time plays a big role in this of course but having positive thinking will help me accomplish my goals. Our cognitions shape how we communicate to our self and how we communicate and interact with others.

Cognitions, being positive.

What do you want to acheve in your life?

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

The Goat Says "MEH!"

The turkey goes "GOBBLE! GOBBLE!"

The horse goes "NIGH! NEIGH!"

The dog goes "WOOF! WOOF!"

From monkeys, to sharks, to lions, there are different species that call planet earth home.

All animals living on earth look different from the light brown fur covering their whole body, keeping them warm as they creep up and tackle sick, hopeless animals for their next meal, or blue and green scales covering up their small, slimy body as they uselessly swim around in their own filth however, when we see them, we can tell they are animals. It is the same with human beings.

When we look at each other we see different colors, shapes, and sizes but if you put us behind an x-ray, and view under our skin, our bones are the same, we would not be able to recognize each other. But under our skin and bones, contains our soul, a personality; our mind in which we contain our own thoughts and feeling about not only ourselves, but of each other.

We gather these thoughts and feelings from when we were very young from family, friends, and society that surrounds all of us by what we are taught and what sounds and images we hear everyday. What we learn from others, these sounds, and images we hear and surround ourselves with everyday, build up one on top of each other and soon they build our identity.

On September 7th, 2012, the Bayan Learning Community went through different activities to become comfortable with one another and to get to know each other. One activity was called “Wagon Wheel.”

As a class, we were told to pair up in partners of two, each facing one another and other surrounding in a circle.

Once the partners faced one another the individual on the outer circle had to ask the person sitting on the outside of the circle question that was provided.

When the questions were asked and time was up the person sitting in the inside of the circle had to move over two places to the left, leaving their old partner and taking the questionnaire with them.

Once with their new partner, the people sitting in the inside of the circle passed the questionnaire over to their new partner and the person sitting in the inside of the circle was not being asked the questions.
I was able to ask the questions to my partner, whom I forget their name, the questions from the handout first but when it was flipped over to me to answer them, I hesitated.

“When did you first realize race could be problematic?” he asked me.
"Uhhh," I responded.
I have never thought about this before, let alone had someone question me.
He started to look impatient with his arms crossed as he asked me the question again, “When did you first realize race could be problematic?”
I thought about it a little more. Flashbacks of my childhood came flowing into my mind, kids making fun of my English accent, teasing me for the color of my skin. 
My partner gave me a blank glance and grumbled "Well?"
"Looking for work." I lied.
I realized that my race would be a problem for me since I was a little girl. I am the only person in my family that doesn't look Mexican. I did not fit in. I will never fit in, they would tell me. When I started preschool children would ask me, "What are you?"
"I don't know." I hesitated.
"Your not a real person, your an alien!" they would laugh.
"Hello?" My partner waves his hands in front of me, "You ok?"

"Yeah, sorry, whats the next question?"

“Describe the first time you consciously first realized you were a member of your race/ethnicity.” looking disinterested. 

"I don't know, I never felt like I belonged with an race or ethnicity."

"Never."

"Yup."

Race and ethnicity makes someone who they are. It is embedded in part of their personality, their identity but I always felt like I have to prove my race and ethnicity to others.

Is it because I am not a "stereotypical" Mexicana?!

Is it because people always mistaken me as a white girl?!

 
I will never know.....